I want to change ME, my LIFE, my FUTURE,
But I don’t know where do I begin.
If only I can turn back the time, ten years from now.
Should I go back to my past, to start all over,
Choose the friends whom I can hang on to, to be trusted with?
A friend offered a shoulder to lean on, a hand to hold, a heart to care.
Did I use my mind to think wisely, realized what might happen?

I truly had a soft heart, easy to melt.
I may not cope up for what happened.
Stuck with the situation which I don’t know how to get out.
I failed myself. I fell on the ground. It’s hard to stand up.
Wake up and do it!
What life would I have if I am not here right now?

I learned my lesson. Dealing with mistakes.
Asking so many things. Wipe all away from the regrets.
I wish I can answer all my Why’s
And have the courage to start a new.
I should use my mind very gently and wisely
To change everything into a better one.

Lifediary511 June 29, 2020